Sunday, September 20, 2009

As a Boy

I was born in a hospital that is now a Megastore. As a boy I looked up at the passing, cheek-pinching people with wide, watered eyes. A doctor told my mother that I was stupid because I never spoke. My shirts were striped until a fat boy made fun of them, then they were striped no longer. My favorite word was fuck. I started fires and kicked in mud and pushed the skin from my knees and elbows onto the rocky concrete of whatever street my family was currently living on. I cried in closet corners and pushed a car lighter into my hand to prove that it would hurt, because there was no other way of knowing for sure. As time passed the little electro-magnets that are installed within all girls began pulling on the iron in my blood. I walked through the threshold, passing from a world of quiet shame into one of pure-white confusion. I hopped through hoops, crossing ploys off the list with each crushing failure. Most of my time was spent down in the hole, so deep that it began filling with water. This is not uncommon.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

The Whiskey's Wish

like a rock in your shoe, there it is

that daily reminder that what was, wasn't

a sore elbow that flashes of ugly declarations

or a sting during that morning piss that resonates of bad judgment

it's that reckoning of lost morals slapping you with you

the ink in your dream water

the hair in your cereal's milk


this scar on your face, it's a tell

that longed look of the vibrating worries

others sense there proximity to loose teeth

or smell shit buried under the carefully plotted words from you, the liar

it's the whiskey's wish for you to stay at this laundry matt

the ghost that makes your eyes puffy

the "L" name in your cell phone


Like that rock in your shoe, this is what is real

Sunday, September 6, 2009

10 More Movies You Should See

1. Frenzy (1972)
2. Bring Me the Head of Alfredo Garcia (1974)
3. Following (1998)
4. The Day of the Jackal (1973)
5. The Yakuza Papers (Five Film Series: 1973-74)
6. The Princess and the Warrior (2000)
7. Hard Eight (1996)
8. Primer (2004)
9. The Getaway (1972)
10. The Long Good Friday (1980)

Screen Grabs: A Clockwork Orange